Tuesday, December 23, 2008

That dreadful week

"When the going gets tough,the tough gets going".
A popular phrase all over the world .And it seemed,all that could've been going- was pacing for me,but till the end of August.
It took just 5 days,exactly 5 days for me to believe, how true IIT's long lasting tradition is. You hear any morale-boosting phrase and IIT is there, to make its converse true. So what can be the converse ?
"When the tough gets going,the going gets tough".
I had come into believing by then ,IIT was the place I was looking for.But after a week it was as if ,I was looking for anywhere but not IIT.
The best institute of India, popular all over the world ;the system here is too cruel- to sustain even the greatest minds, to continue as they were, all one can show after clearing IIT is at most CGP and not the aptitude that brought them there.
And I was there, with an intuition: of standing without any possession ,not even the CGP. Those dreaded minors were there ,a first time experience is incomparable to all that succeed. Not totally sure about, how a name 'Minor' could cause so major problems, even to those, for whom this place had been an abode now for few years.
Those classes bunked were now costing , I enjoyed my sleep by missing that 1 hour so many times ,but I knew now what I would be missing this time, were the marks. That dreaded MAL (Maths course) , was almost about to see last of me this semester, as soon as I came to know about the option of dropping , but it was some wise advisory words from the seniors that I clung to it ,despite fear of failing reigning my mind.
Fail ! That's a word I had been escaping quite handsomely all these years ,but why not here ,I didn't have the answer to it.And finally came the papers and I knew I had screwed them, as soon as that sheet was denied the services- of being wrote on by a pen. Only one paper saw me exiting hall before teacher asked me to and unbelievably it was MAL. The results read, none better than I had performed.
I knew I had lacked determination this time ,but because determination asks for a reason and GPA was not a sound enough reason to convince my mind. The marks read:
Siddharth Bhattacharya Entry No. 2008MT50461
MAL- 19/25
MEL- 18/30
CSL- 17/40
CYL- 25/100
Of course , this will look like code language to a Non-IITian but they depict Maths,Mechanical (ED),Computer and Chemistry respectively. Quite unbelievable; here I was rejoicing a 19/25,being the third highest scorer in it. No enmities against anyone ,a purely transparent system: where you don't know why to go to get your marks increased.
The average read
MAL-11
MEL-20
CSL-14.7
CYL-33
Nothing to be proud of, being above average in that CSL paper ,after all its we people who submerge the average to such depths and anyway, its Computers what a scientific brain should be processing the best. I did but it offered me limited scope ,publishing half the algorithm ,it crippled me for using another. Surely ,all this was turning love into hatred for IIT.
And that ED-Engineering Drawing , I always knew drawing was not my 'cup of tea'. Even a compass slipped before reaching its destination,forget managing to draw big engineering structures. Tutorials were reading 6/10 continuously for the first two times with Class Average going to almost 9. I could 've predicted from here ,these 5 years would be as much struggle as fun .
Or, maybe more ? Time would tell.

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2 comments:

Nikhil Gupta said...

Hmm i am really impressed ..... Sai me... Though i had all the info written in your blog before hand,........ as you know i know(as per i believe 0 alomost everything about you

Thou i still havent really gone through the whole blog

But still i shall give you the same suggestion i hve been giving since 4 years i believe ,......... TRY TO RESPECT PEOPLE....... though to be frank. i myself is not following the same after enetring IIT but as more time i am passing here i believe this certainly works
...............

Siddharth Bhattacharya said...

thanx for dat suggestion and this sem ,i ve literally followed being respectful with teachers .Though its true they suck and think a child's decency to be his weakness, life isn't depressing anyway

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